February 2011
1 post
God,
Give me strength to get through this.
December 2010
1 post
12/14
You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold on to her and give her the most you can.
October 2010
13 posts
Today,
I am going to Vegas to celebrate my 21st birthday.
I’m not even excited.
You requested the days off to be with me. You got them off.
Where are you? I’d rather be with you.
Today,
I want to fight but I’m scared you will reject me.
Actually I know you will.
“But I didn’t understand then. That I could hurt somebody so badly she would...”
– Haruki Murakami (via anditslove)
Today,
I fell asleep when I came home, had a dream that something terrible had happened to you; woke up crying and wanting to call you to see if you’re okay. I didn’t though.
I know you’d just ignore my call.
Last night,
I went out to celebrate my friends’ birthday and realized now that I’m 21 all I wanna do is go out with you.
I miss you.
Today,
I wanted to apologize to you and run up to you; hug you in the cage; and tell you that the best things in life are worth fighting for and I want yo fight for you.
my pride got in the way.
July 2010
2 posts
Through the years
May 5th, 2008: T: Will you be my girlfriend?
I said no.
May 22nd, 2008: A: I love you. Now let’s see if I can fall in it with you.
He said yes.
June 17th, 2010: We need a break.
June 25th, 2010: Break up.
July 26th, 2010: I still love you. I’m still in love with you. Now let’s see if I can fall out of it with you.
And after the most physically, mentally, and emotionally strenuous day..all I can do is lay in bed.
In the dark.
Alone.
While my mind wanders through the sane questions over and over again.
How did I get here?
Why does it hurt so bad?
What was the point?
Will I ever be okay again?
The questions keep circling even though I already know the answers.
I don’t want to be here anymore. Or...
June 2010
4 posts
over
Couldn’t be what he wanted me to be
tried so hard to make it work & be happy
i pushed him away (on accident of course)
my insecurities got in the way everyday
- finally figured it out,
why i had all the doubt
he never wanted me around
whenever he was vacation bound
family time, he said that’s what it was
but when you date someone for two years
she should already be apart...
“I want you to choose me.”
– LJB. (via pieces)
9652.) I can't allow myself to be loved.
(via brokenmachine, blogsecret)
brokenmachine:
crushes
Dear Self,
You’re going to be fine.
Sure you’re a little moody, and a little crazy, and a little unsure of everything you want. (Being honest, who isn’t?) But you’re fine.
The answers will come. You will understand what you’re supposed to be doing. You’ll find someone to love. And you’ll figure it out eventually.
You will, and you know it.
In the meantime, keep...
April 2010
9 posts
Everything just falls apart
whenever I’m even remotely close to being happy. It’s honestly unbelievable. Thisssssss sucks sucks sucks sucks I don’t want to sit here and listen to people telling me how I should feel and how I should help myself. It’s kind of ridiculous. KIND OF INCREDIBLY RIDICULOUS I JUST WANT TO TELL EVERYONE TO SHUT UP.
“and now you feel like everything should just be given...
I just want to be
close to you.
I'd rather die.
I feel like a bicycle without wheels.
To the one I love,
I love waking up and seeing that you’ve called or texted me, even if all you said was “Hello” or “Hiiis”. I LOVE falling asleep with you and knowing that I get to wake up next to you. I love when either of us wake up in the middle of the night; turn to the other and say, “huggles!!” with a little whimper in wonderance of why we weren’t clung together...
1 tag
March 2010
2 posts
UGLY
piece of fucking shit.
Worthless, disgusting, ALONE.
UGLY UGLY UGLY.
February 2010
1 post
i want my old life back.
December 2009
2 posts
“Because sometimes it’s easier to say, “I hate you,” than “I miss you, I wish we...”
– credit here. (via eletheowl) (via brokenmachine)
Hey, just checking, how often has your head told...
haguenite:
Cause, ehm, mine isn’t shutting up.
October 2009
2 posts
“I’m tired of being sad. I’m tired of crying. I’m tired of feeling empty inside....”
– (via runawaytrain) (via gonnabearockstar) (via watchasifall)
whoa
i am actually diagnosed depressed.
Used to be the one who was yearned for, the one people came to for help…
Now I need the help.
September 2009
4 posts
nothing is worth it anymore.
why did the airbag deploy?
“He reached for her hand. “I don’t want to lose you.” His voice was almost in a...”
– The Rescue by Nicholas Sparks (via nevermine) (via letterboxlove) (via lovebot) (via gonnabearockstar)
I just want to be worth it. For you.
i always feel extremely intimidated by anyone...
alotlikelove:
dancehall:
juliabbz:(via poetic-ethic)
August 2009
3 posts
i just want to switch off my heart. i'm sick of...
(via watchasifall)
Depressed.
July 2009
18 posts
“…I have this strange feeling that I’m not myself anymore. It’s hard to put into...”
– Haruki Murakami (via thoughtsdetained) (via beautyintherain) (via apologies) (via finallyseeing) (via brokenmachine)
Reblog if you want to get the fuck out of your...
watchasifall:
gonnabearockstar:
thisisaheart:
filthypirate:
abbymahal:(via thisorigamidream)
“You can never tell what people are thinking and feeling unless they tell you,...”
– Unknown (via thresca) (via gonnabearockstar)
6371.) I always knew you didn't love me.
gonnabearockstar:
(via blogsecret)
I feel abandoned.
(via thisisaheart)
6521.) I just don't want to be lonely anymore.
thisisaheart:
(via blogsecret)